trust

I hate being paranoid.
i hate not really trusting him.

i hate that him telling me "i'm not going anywhere" is not nearly as comforting as I want it to be.

and for that, i blame the ex.

i blame him for these trust issues. because i did trust him, and he dogged me.

i know that the workie is a different man.

I know that the workie is a better man.

but the damage is done, and i don't know how to fix it.